Feeling; Incognito

There I stood
Something I had to expect
But I knew your choice
I'd have to respect.

It would be something
I'd have to accept
If you decided
To reject.

But you decided to go on
And embrace
Both our hearts
Began to race.

We stood there
Oh yes, my mind did space.
We got interrupted,
Reminded that we should pace.

People stared
It's always online chat or the phone
Never in person
Can we be alone.

Is there something about us
That they don't trust?
Believing in some kind
Of secret lust?

Why we're watched so closely
I don't know why
But be together
We will try.

If alone we'd probably
Just stare each other down
Silence too awkward to break
Both of us like some kind of clown

I wait for you to talk
But there's nothing to receive
But I guess I'm no better
It's something you can't conceive.

It's because I look into your eyes
I'm not sure what to say or do.
But I know
That I love
You.

At The Last Moment

Outside in the cold dark
Letting all the warmth go
Leaving a different world behind
Here, intensity will grow.

I could tell you were nervous
You took so much pressure
But you made a move
That I will always treasure.

I turn around because
There's something I want to say
But you are not there,
I've noticed I walked away.

There you were
On the ground
Just sitting there
Not making a sound.

I couldn't move
All I did was smile
I thought what should I do?
The answer took a while...

To process
Make progess
in my mind
You helped me to see
That I wasn't blind.

You fell
On the cement so cold
I knew you wanted, needed
Someone for you to hold.

In that moment
It was just you and me
In our own universe
Where we were free.

You got up
All I could do was shrug
And that was when
We shared a hug.

I had to leave
And it ended fast
But that doesn't mean
It will be our last.

She

Is wonderful to have around
Is so funny
Is so Fun-loving
is shy and
so cute.
Is crazy to choose me
Is insane, because I don't know what she sees in me.
Has to be pushed hard sometimes.
Is admirable for being pushed.
Is warm
Is sweet
Is so talented
In a lot of different ways
Is sometimes feisty.
Is so smart.
Is an angel.
Can somehow find a way to love me.
Is my inspiration,
My reason,
My determination.
She is so beautiful,
and I'm lucky to have her.
Is the girl I love.

It Should've Been Longer

But it felt too short

This Society

I know what I want
I know what YOU want me to be
I know what YOU want me to do
I know that I don't want to
I know that YOU'll be happy if I do
I know that, I just won't
I know that now a days, people don't base you off of your character
I know that all everyone sees is a piece of paper with letters meaning nothing to me
I know that when I don't do what YOU want, YOU get mad
I know that for some stupid reason I have to say sorry, and make up for it. Because YOU say so.
I know what my future will be.
I know it will be sad. But it is MY decision.
I know what I will have to do to make my life better. And I will try.
I know I will break my promises.
I know that you will get mad at me, and yell at me.
I know that in the end you will strike me down, and put me in harm's way.
I know that you, Society, is what I thrive off of. And whose standard's will ultimately and udderly shut me out, and shut me down.
I know there will be others, whose hearts are soft, who will pitty me.
I know that if I pull through, I will take vengence on those who shoved me down.
I know that if I succeed without your guidelines, your rules, that you will know those rules need not exist.
I know that if I become a success I will laugh in your face.
I know that if you're children one day look up to me, I will tell them how you brought me down.
I know that you shouldn't judge me based off of letters on a piece of paper.
I know I should try better. But your constant lecturing isn't helping.
I know John 8:7