Guess What... I Don't Know

Your messages haunt my dreams
Not sure if ya know what I mean
They were very textual
Absolutely not sexual

Everybody gives a relieved sigh

You were always the goody two shoes
You didn't have anything to lose
So what, did I play the menace?
You don't say, do I really have to guess?

What, guess what
You leave me questioning
Not thinkin it could do harm
But, guess what
Can you believe you broke my heart
Before I broke my arm
No, oh no
There I go again
Mumblin' and ramblin'

Sorry, I'll just stop.

But wait a minute
All those good times
When you were in it
Are those things I should forget?

You say you need some space
Well I might as well erase
You from my brain
It would stop all the pain

What, guess what
You leave me questioning
Not thinkin it could do wrong
But, guess what
Can you believe you broke my heart
And now it's in a song
No, oh no
You leave without a sound
I walk & I'm lookin down

It'll take some time, before I chin up

It's alright, you can block me off
I promise you that I won't scoff
You've got much to do, and not much time
I'll not speak, live as a pantomime

Maybe I could take it to state

And I'll walk through
The black and white
Sneak around you
I don't want to fight

What, guess what
You leave me questioning
About how my future will go
But, guess what
Can you believe you broke my heart
I hope it mends, but hey who
Knows, I know
That I'm always questioning
If you'll turn your head around again

Concave

As I come crashing through your atmosphere
I come alienating invading your ear space
My world is falling, people are dying
Can't do anything, I start crying

You try your best to comfort me
Though you don't know exactly what you see
You're not sure what you should say
That's alright you don't mean it anyway

If you did, you'd have been there earlier
Oh wait, that's right, actually you were
Well hey whatever, I'll see you later
Don't call me, I'll call you

Just kidding, I won't call
I never do

Everyone grieves in their own way
But I'm not sure if my style's okay
They say I'm conceited, but what about them?
And I'm sure, there will be better men
then me

Cause my mind's concave
I know I'm not brave
Though I'm not afraid
But it's dark in here
Dark in here
Get me out of here
I want to see the light

A Hero Can Fall

Well Superman never really could be with Lois Lane
It causes her too much pain
And every hero with all his might
Realized his woman was his kryptonite

I don't know why a superhero can't keep the girl
and save the world
And whenever duty calls
The man inside just falls
Falls down

Heroes don't even take a vacation
So how could he manage a relationship
A hero doesn't get one sick day
So how could he say he loved her

He loves her

I don't know why a superhero can't keep the girl
and save the world
And whenever duty calls
The man inside just falls
Falls down

The mask he wears seems deceiving
Give all his life without receiving
A thanks or a gift, but he is blessed
Chastity until his final rest

I don't know why a superhero can't keep the girl
and save the world
And whenever duty calls
The man inside just falls
Falls

No, I don't know why a superhero can't keep the girl
and save the world
No I don't know, I don't know
Can somebody save me?

I don't know why I cannot save the world
Save the world
The man inside me calls out
Because a hero can fall

Abraham

It's just another cloudy day
Along side with Ay-braham
I want to sing, but I don't know what to say

Mr. Yin Yang please tell me
Why can't everything just
Be happy?

Why are there extremes of both sides?
Why are there Jekyll's and Mr. Hyde's?

It's just a cold and windy day
Shivering with Ay-braham
We're frozen dark, and we're blown away

Mr. Yin Yang please tell me
All the leaves turn brown
How come the trees never frown?

In the winter, we feel heartless
In the summer, we're so restless

It's just a hot and humid day
Sluggin along with Ay-braham
And as, average joes we never get our way

Mr. Yin Yang please tell me
Did you ever have it this hard?
I'm about to toss my cards.

Do I need punishment
To really get enlightenment?

And I await the perfect day
Movin on with Ay-braham

It's just another cloudy day
Along side with Ay-braham

And I await the perfect day
Movin on with Ay-braham

It's just another cloudy day
Along side with Ay-braham...

I've been waiting for the moment
When you'd throw me away
I knew that it was gonna happen
But I didn't think it'd be today

You say you still want me (Just a little)
I know I still want you
So much time together,
Our time's up, our time's almost through

This is a long distance relationship
Even though you're not that far
Repairs will be put off until
I learn to drive a car

Can't remember last, when we had a hug
And now it really is starting to bug (Me)
Don't know whether to push or pull
Why is it, I never have control?

Trial

Raised up in the unknown city
I just want a little pity
I haven't gone far
Reach my goal? Not even close
Leave me alone; Please let me compose

I'm gonna burst if you
give me one more shove
My father taught me pride
My mother taught me to hide
My anguish, success, and love

My family begins
Humble, honest
But kept raisin our chin

We were down, but never were we scarred
My family risen to a prime
Now we don't have a dime
Parental Units now grieve, and it's back to a hard

I know that I'm not gonna do it, although you want me to
Leave me alone don't know the psychological stuff I'm goin through

Make me indestructible
But all I do is shatter
I'm gonna die, no one cares
Because I don't matter

You Tell Me

Would you steal a look,
if I fell, and the ground shook?

If I scream, in terror and pain
would your clouded eyes begin to rain?

If I had much sorrow,
Would you just leave tomorrow?

If I lost my father, my mother,
Would you even care to bother?

Would you come to my aid?
Or would your heart be stayed?

Would you accompany me,
if I became lonely?

Would you like to dial,
as I stare at my phone for a while?

Would you leave me out in the cold?
or warm me up, being once again bold?

If I were to die?
Would you even cry?

Endure this fool to the end,
Please, will you still by my friend?

How Unusual

When the Unusual Boy awoke from his slumber he shook his shaggy haired head and plucked the salinity that was left over in eyes from the night. "Great" He thought sarcastically. The Unusual Boy didn't enjoy helping his father move his posessions from the house to his father's newly acquired apartment. He wanted to get that off his mind.

The Unusual Boy went over to the computer and opened up his email. He opened up various subscription updates to video and game sites and a few emails from some friends. Mostly junk mail. His friends weren't the kind to email him often. And for some reason the Unusual Boy felt lesser of himself for it. It was an insecurity he didn't understand, but was instinctive and consistent. He had to have attention, had to have people like him, or even dislike him. As long as he stood out and could be backed up by friends. He tried very hard to be funny and seem cool. He hung out with as many people as he could, talk to as many people as he could. He hoped, and it seemed that in general people liked him. But he always had a strange feeling that people thought he was unusual. And people did think of him as unusual.

He retired from his computer to his video games. Of course, none of his friends were online, and therefore the Unusual Boy didn't play very much. What an Average weekend it was. Being home and bored. He ate a small breakfast and decided to not brush his teeth today. It didn't matter. No one was gonna see him today. He went back to his room and went back to his computer. He checked his email already, but something nudged him to check another email he had. Nothing there but junk mail. Another nudge, faint yet persistent told him to check his school email. (The only email his school would allow.) He hoped that maybe if he was bored enough an interesting email would show up in his inbox. He was surprised though. There actually was an email in his school inbox. How unusual. No one ever sends emails on this thing.

The Unusual Boy glanced at the name who it was from. Was it that girl from last period? She's pretty cute, the boy thought. How unusual, she wants to play video games?

Past Pains

I couldn't sleep at night. I stayed up as late as I could and forced myself to sleep during the day. I never went anywhere. Never did anything. I only ate to keep myself from dying. I was antisocial. I didn't want to be with anyone. When I was cut off from you, it was like I couldn't breathe on my own. And the air was cut from me. When you gave me silence. I turned deaf. When I couldn't feel your presence. I went numb. I didn't eat, because I couldn't taste my food. And I went nocturnal, because that's what my life had become. Darkness. And the light only hurt, only reminded me of what I'd lost. You became my everything. I needed you. When I couldn't have you, it killed me. Tortured me slowly, persistently. I felt the wrath of your silence. It burned me, then iced me over. That's how much you meant to me. That's how much I loved you. Those memories, still haunt my dreams. I ask why, why can't I forget? Why can I not forget these depressing times? And I realize it is because this was deeper than depression. This was heart break.

On The Road

Danny Boy was the last out
After you had had your pout
Out in the dark
It was getting late at the park

Well now it is tomorrow
We're both feeling sorrow
Because I have to go
But did you know...

That I'm glad
That I'll have something to miss
But I'm sad
That I'll have no one to kiss
For a while

I'm sorry
That I had to hit the road
My family is callin
So now I have to go

Middle of nowhere
Keep my cellphone on roam
Because I miss you and
I want to go home

I wonder how many things
Will you change
What will you re-arrange
Will things be different and strange...

When I get back home?
Yes when I'm home

You know that I'm glad
That I'll have someone to miss
But I'm sad
That I can't receive your kiss
Today

Space Angel

Space Angel
Planetary Baroness
Beautiful to look at
Dangerous to interact

Soothing
So much unknown
You're mysterious
That's a fact

Cold desolation
But never truly alone
Not even now
Though I'm miles from home

If you miss me
Look up at the night sky
As I lay down
I'm looking at it too

We have to go far
Study the dark matter
Of our relationship
I love you

Deep pits of darkness
Can't hear your voice
In a dead silent vacuum
Makes elusion no choice

Space Angel
Planetary Baroness
Loving to go
Where no boy has gone before

Secretive crimes

Waiting for perfect moment
Darkness feels so heaven sent
Lose my mind over your scent
You decide your lips could be lent

Sitting here with no regret
Previous contract I forget
I'm am just a happy fool
Never felt so good about a broken rule

Secretive crimes you know they're the best
Because being naughty isn't put to a rest

Rules were meant to be broken
Let me give you a gratitudal token
Plans went down without a flaw
No one knows we broke the law

When you are done splashing me silly
You need to warm up cause you're feelin chilly
Third time is the charm they say
And love seems to act in a similar way

Secretive crimes you know they're the best
Because being naughty isn't put to a rest

Crave

I feel like they've
Got me trapped, enslaved
Though I love being depraved
I'm lost in a dark cave
Opportunity they gave
To make me behave
We've had some close shaves
Please baby feel brave
You just got to save
Me from my destined grave
Grin at them and wave
As we misbehave
You know what we both-

Not So Average

Quick note- Not poetry, but a nice little short story that seems to go with the theme of this blog

There once was a girl. A teenage girl who, in her mind wasn't very spectacular, or extrordinary. Some people knew her, some did not. But this did not bother her at all. She tried her best in school, and did exceptionally well, though she was never commended for it. She didn't mind that at all though either. She lived an average school life and, although many of her interests were not considered average or ordinary, she lived the average life of a teen girl.

One day as this average girl was studying during one of her class periods the teacher left in order to tend to a private matter. For the most part the rest of the class was studying, silently working out their assignments in their head. When a few boys deceased their work and began socializing. The average girl was distraught for a quick moment, but shortly returned to her work. The average girl got deeper and deeper into the assignment, almost enjoying it, she was interrupted.

One of the boys was suddenly near her. With a proximity so close she could clearly understand him whisper. He questioned her about her daily activitites and interests and hobbies. Before she could answer any of his inquiries, the two were scolded by the teacher who had returned from her previous whereabouts. The boy shrugged, winked and then sat back down. He returned to his work quietly, but did not give off a defeated mannerism.

The average girl tried to return to work, but couldn't. Something pulled her out of her concentration. Pulled her interest of the assignment away from her. Was it shock from being scolded? She did not believe so. She turned her glance from the teacher to the boy who had attempted to introduce himself. There was something about this boy. An aura or some other strange force about him had power over the girl's attention. But the average girl did not know why. He was a rowdy, trouble making individual, always making a brief yet intruding racous in the classroom environment. And yet, he did not seem arrogant like other boys, he did not seem so full of himself as teeangers do. He seemed, at least somewhat intelligent. Which was hard to come around at the school. He was small, scrawny, but there was a fiery will that said to all others he could do anything. The average girl was interrupted in her thoughts by the school bell.

Time to go home. It was a warm, orange filled, autumn day, when the average girl began walking home. Never had she left class with her work unfinished. She was so distracted by that boy. And then a very strange thought occured to her on this one strange day of her normally average life.

That boy is... kind of... cute.

The Hobo Blues

Quick Note- Also known as The Broken Hearted Blues

My baby don't love me no more
She always tells me I'm a bore
I no longer have a boss
So poor can't afford dental floss

And ya know, and ya know, and ya know I got the blues

I was abandoned by my ma
& I've never met my pa
When you get slapped across the face
That's when you know you're a disgrace

And you're dead, and you're dead, and you're dead just like a dog

That woman is such a tramp
But somehow she makes my cheeks go damp
Stack my life up on the shelf
Well maybe I'll just go kill myself

And ya know, and ya know, and ya know I got the blues

My baby don't love no more
She shoved me out my own door
Now I'm livin out in the streets
And I can't get back on my feet

I'm gonna die, I'm gonna die, I'm gonna die and I don't care no more

Joker's Holiday

Buy a bullet, rent a gun
Hit the town and have some fun
Let your inhibitions go
As we see the buildings blow up

Take a hostage, rob a bank
Comandeer that little skank
Take a punch or start the fight
Without the sense of wrong or right

Today is anarchy day
You may blow the world away
Love the world as it goes in fire
This will make you feel much higher

Start up a high speed chase
Deal with your demons face to face
Grant yourself all desire
Come and join the undead choir

Please lend me your ear
Because tomorrow's almost here
Don't let this day go to waste
Leave your bloodthirst with an aftertaste

Today is anarchy day
You may blow the world away
Love the world as it goes in fire
This will make you feel much higher

When the morning sun arises
You'll have no rewards or prizes
Be sure to have confidence
Anarchy has a consequence

Be aware, and please remit
For all the sins that you commit
For you shall be diminished
When this song comes to a finish

A Broken Family

In this house I have no voice
No opinion, no freedom, no choice

I work all night
I work all day
Making sure the
Little ones are okay

When I ask
I get no reward
Get no pay

While you scurry
Always in a hurry
To partay

I never know where you are
Maybe at the temple
or maybe a bar

Life is already hard enough
Without you here
Trying to act tough

For the midget girl
Who's lookin for a fight
And yes, she does it every night

Lil boy, he's already got struggles
Only making it hard
With his life bein juggled

By a little girl who's anger is old
An abandoning mother
And a selfish boy,
who does what he's told

I hate bein home
This place I try to avoid
It's just a black hole
And angry void

I'd rather be with friends
Til the very end

Thank You

I'm laying there with you

Your head on my chest

You warm me up so easily

And oh, it feels the best.

Good times, whether I'm

playin with your skin

Or surprising you with

my strength, though I'm thin

Can't wait to scream

At several miles to the hour

Hold your hand in excitement

While dragged about with so much power

But not as powerful

As your smile or your pout

That makes my time worth while

Or makes me want to yell and shout

And I always break into a wonder
Why must we be forced to sunder?
Separation does not seem fair
Divided by an unseen barrier

Even if we drift away
I'm happy that I can always say
I'm thankful for the good times we've had
Glad to be friend lass and lad

Jaded

There can't be a relationship
Only beneficial friendship
We've had our ups and downs
As we've walked all over town

Well I've never felt this way before
You've baby stepped me through a new door
There's nothing as amusing
As this world we find confusing

Jade
Look what you've made
Oh, my confidence
Begins to fade

You've always been a troubled girl
Secretively ready to unfurl
Most of that is history
Yet, you're still a mystery

You are all determination
Intellect and concentration
I'm scatterbrained and half awake
All my rhymes just half-baked

Jade
Look what you've made
Oh, my confidence
Begins to fade

I see you through the glass wall
I have to keep my words scrawled
Our love is forced to fall
Pocketed like an eight ball

There's always a barricading force
We can't seem to find the source
Why must we be kept separated?
Was our love meant to be jaded?

Jade
Look what you've made
A fool out of me

Weekend

As we sit down together
You're feeling under the weather
And I just try to sooth
Hoping that the road is smooth

Cause you worry me

I'm not sure if we broke a rule
But you sure did warm up my cool
And my mind lingers
When I feel your fingers

The way you touch me

I tried so hard to cover it up
But then you just bring it up
And that last line was not a rhyme
It's alright I'm not the best poet

But you still love it

As we lay down to a huddle
Because you are quick to cuddle
I sense someone's jealousy
As they are watching you and me

But I ignore it

Even if the whole world shatters
It wouldn't even matter
As long as I'm with you
Because I love you

And I hope you love me too

I Will Be There

I will be there
When you need a hug
or a shoulder to rest on

I will be there
When you need somebody
To tell you they love you

I will be there
When you need me
Or when you want me

I will be there
If you are still waiting
Or if you're not

I don't want to be there
When you are hatin on yourself
Don't want to be datin that girl

I will be there
When you are positive
And won't self criticize

A Request

Well, it seemed like things were going fine
But I held back due to a verbal sign
Curiosity killed the cat
Wondering why did I have to look at that

Relationships are based on will and trust
And I was willing to trust, everyone
Had to take care of their lust, have some fun
This mystery, up to me to bust, and I feel dumb

Second time she almost broke my heart
She wonders if we can restart
I wasn't sure yet
How to get my words set

Say it in a text, be like a curse
I decide to set it to the verse
I wanted to tell you in person
Explain to you my first condition

With you again
I wanna see the stars
Decide who is who
And which one is ours

And it's time to be revealed
The second thing I kept concealed

Let's make it unlike last year
When I didn't even hear
from you, let's make the summer great
Keep it from becoming a debate

Don't let three months become a bummer
Please, love me for at least the summer

Dimming Rage

My soul burned!
My heart churned.

My head blew steam
Reality, it's a bad dream.

All the walls that I wanted to smash
Your world, his, I wanted it to crash.

I was gonna get up in his face
Yell at him, make him look like a disgrace.

I awkwardly talk with the wise old bird
I carefully listened to every single word.

Ready to fight, I finally arrived
But I stayed my tongue, acted sleep deprived.

Released my sadness through a small voice
I'm surrounded by a clatter of noise.

I release my anger through several beads
Kick my anger until it completely impedes.

I'm fine with him now, it's all onto you
But I'm still not sure what I want to do.

Cut you with my words, each one a hack
Or apologize for going behind your back.

End of the day, it's no longer hazy
Stay mad at you, I'd be crazy.

Me holding a grudge, impossible
My love for you, insurmountable

But, what to do now?
I'm not sure
What do you think?

A Fading Memory

Twinkle, twinkle those little stars did
Away from the rest of the world, we hid
Foreign whispers surrounded, but it was really just you and I
As we sat and laid there, looking up at the night time sky

Cold night, offered a jacket, I just turn away
With you it's always a hot summer day
Turn my head, want to kiss God's beautiful creation
But I must resist that aberration.

I'm a fool about this deal, why did I insist?
Now I realize that I must consist
As I turn my head to hesitate
I begin to contemplate

The stars, your eyes, there's no comparison
The stars, your beauty has always outdone
As this thought runs through my head
It starts to slip away, the thought has fled

You tell me not to forget
And I won't
But will you remember me?

Untitled

I'm not the typical guy
You will find
I'm of a different kind

The kind who likes to ponder
About the things that no one wonders about

Yes I may be weird
Because I never cheered
For the home team
I was busy, stuck in a dream

The same kind of people
Come in all shapes and sizes
But you will see
I'm quite full of surprises

I'm not exactly Nerd
I'm a little bit of Geek
Not the kind of person you would seek

My type is undefined
The one who unwinds and shouts

People know my name
But never heard of my game
Behind my eyes lays deception
Plants in their minds a misconception

The same kind of people
Come in all shapes and sizes
But you will see
That I'm quite full of surprises

Neither you or I
Know exactly what I am
But that's part of the plan

I'm not a bad boy or a jock
But I don't read comics, or like Spock

Not nice, but not a jerk
Kind of lazy, but I want to work
Everybody who looks at me
They don't know what they see, neither do I

The same kind of people
Come in all shapes and sizes
But you will find
That I'm quite full of surprises

To find out who I am
That part might just take a while
But I am fine staying untitled

To find out who I am
That part might just take a while
But I am fine staying untitled

...

Homesick

Can't think of lyrics for a happy song
All I can think of, are the things that are wrong
I'm in a
Depression
Making no
Progression

Out on the streets everything is so new
My failures rapidly come out of the blue
And I can't
Think
I refuse to
Sing.

I just wanna go
Home.
Won't you take me home?
Cause I am so home sick
Just so home sick.
I wanna go home.

Things didn't work out between mom and dad
Bloody battles were fought, it became Stalingrad
I'm just
Tired
Time has
Expired.

My bike chain, broke it appears
Why must I always break into tears?
When I'm
Alone?
I'm always
Alone

I just wanna go
Home.
Can I just go home?
I am so home sick.
Why am I so home sick?
I wanna go home

How come the happiness didn't last?
That home is now just my past
I'll never
Return
Always
Feel burned.

And I just wanna smash all the walls
Because it wasn't fair, no.
I wanna stand tall
But I fall down, fall down.
It's not fair. They won't let me go

Home.
I just wanna go back home
I feel so home sick
Do I have to be home sick?
Carry me home.

I learn another one's home
Know it better than my own
All repressed
Is my pain
Heart broken
And insane

All because I'm
Homesick.



The Message:
A little while ago my parents divorced. This has been hard to accept, and my life style and mental state has changed for the worse. I am insecure, lazy, depressed, and with younger siblings, I have to be the tough one. Never let them see you cry. All my pain, all my anger is repressed. This poem is my acceptance of hard times, but also a wish to go back to the way things used to be. A home is a place to get away from the troubles of the world, an oasis. I no longer have that, the life I live is alien to me. I wish I could go back home.

Time waiting, Time Spent

Surrounded, try to keep occupied

Music ringing in my ear

Wish that you were by my side

Want you to be here.



I scream & applaud

Strangers recognize me

I politely nod

Indecisive, where I want to be



Combined events

Everybody I tried to please

Separation, I tried to prevent

Make decision a bit eas-ier



But that doesn't happen

Things never go as planned

I'm a bit saddened

Your prolonged absence I can't stand



The next day did rise

Too slowly did it pass

Sent to me all your sighs

You're such a worried lass.


I finally arrive

Everyone, waiting on me

But few moments I can derive

As we sit and watch a movie


Two hours pass by

and my neck is stiff

Now you have to fly

There's no question of what if


Time passes by too soon

Chance

-Prose

I didn't really know
Something caught my eye
Knew her, not even by name
A year goes by, neither of us have
noticed each other.
Then in silence
Not even a whisper
I happened to walk by
We had a similar interest
I questioned her
She slightly answered
I had no idea, she knew my name
Something itched me
Something I never look to
I decided to check
And her message sat there
unclicked, unread
I was unsure, who could this be?
Then I knew.
Things grew, things dwindled
But it all happened by chance
If I had not taken that glimpse
Towards her literature
I never would have known
The name of her.
I would not have had someone special
One thing could be easier to surpass
But it's nice to make that task
harder.

You Weren't There

As I get waken up

I'm being shaken up

Kicked out of my bed

Thoughts run through my head



I didn't know this

Can't even remember

Getting the eviction notice



The repo men come too

Take my stuff out of the blue

I don't have anymore jokes to crack

Cause I only got the clothes on my back



Must stifle this growing hunger

Standing in eternal line

I'm not getting any younger



I just need a little bit of food

Give the order to a foreign dude

Don't know how he could call it

Repo men also took my wallet


I start to live on the street

I begin to beg

I can barely stand on my own two feet


I wouldn't have guessed it

But wouldn't you know it,

After they put coins in my cup

They decide to beat me up.


Punch me in the face

Kick me in the stomach

I am a disgrace


Now they place me on a bed

Thoughts of death run through my head

They lay me down, sure to be gentle

This happened way to quick, I'm going mental


My life went downhill in one day

And you weren't here to see it

Solitude Romance

Wake up every morning

Things start out, a little boring

Pull on my socks and shoes

Don't know what I'm gonna do.

Meeting my friends at school

Pretending that I'm so cool

You never see my insecurity

Never know of my impurity.


First class, singing a song

No one knows what is wrong

In First, I don't feel good

She's never in the mood, for my rubbish


And I just wish...


That you'd give me one more dance

Cause you've put me in a trance

Don't know the meaning of your stance

We are in a solitude romance


I'm here in second, feeling a ghost

Only feel comfort, not felt by most

Wonder, is my sorrow godly?

My future is thought of so sadly.


I don't know when the bell rings

But when it does, the cold air stings

As I walk out the door

Down step, you're not there anymore.


I move so silently

Though the halls, forged violently

I'm searchin for your face

But I'm left with just disgrace, because I'm lost


I wonder how much it would cost...


If you'd give me one more dance

Cause you've put me in a trance

Don't know the meaning of your stance

We are in a solitude romance


And, in Third

She's crazy like a bird

Then in Fourth

Well, I wish it was short


In Fifth, it's just talk

Being watched by a hawk

Sixth, I'll miss

Cause now we have BIG MISS

But Seven feels like heaven

Where we don't learn a thing

It's all because

I'm still focused on what I should sing


Or should I...


Ask you for one more dance

Take me out of this trance

We share the exact same stance

They stare down at our romance


Just give me one more dance

Cause you've put me in a trance

Don't know the meaning of your stance

We are, we are, we are

Solitude Romance...

Sick

Laying here in sickness
Wishing I was hidden in darkness.

My eyes they hurt, they're heavy
Feel like a small, helpless sevie.

Sitting here, feeling the pain
Something is killing my brain.

With an everlasting migraine
Wonder if I'm going insane.

Can't hear me, I have a cough
Someone cuts my throat
Making it raw, rough.

Writing this I go colorblind
Can't tell black from blue
I realize I'm missing you.

I wish you were here, so much.
So I could feel your gentle touch.

Missing your arms around me
My arms around you
I miss your beautiful eyes too.

I wish tomorrow would hurry
But the time here is blurry.

Too much background noise
I miss your "poise"

It's pointed out that I am tired
In a world that is always wired.

& I'm feeling so cold
Wish you were here to hold.

Staying awake
Is a piece of cake.

Because your name is ringing through my ears
You're the motor to my gears.

Wishing I could see your smile
I think of you for quite the while.

I'm offered a pill
But I don't feel the will.

To try and swallow
My stomach's hollow.

But I can't eat
Because I am beat.

Whenever I think of you.

PDA

Quick note- PDA= Public Display of Affection


At first I thought it was a joke
But then the silence he broke.

He told you it was Hug-An-Asian Day
But we just stood there anyway

The Japexican and the Bassist
Joked around, called you a racist.

By 2 girls, 3 guys I got hugged
& Each time I just shrugged.

There was a Public Display of Asian
On this very strange occasion.

We're not very PDA
I know that's why you stayed away.

Private affection is how we sway.
& I like it better that way.

In the Dark

Sitting there you and me
Both of us making our moves slowly

Friends attempt to move the oblivious away
But neither of us have anything to say

We don't want to be a bother
We just want to be with one another

Neither of us want to be in a struggle
But I can tell you want to snuggle

Huddled up next to each other
Cuddled with one another

You're not as shy, you're getting bolder
As you lay your head atop my shoulder

There's a move to make, I know
I begin with a pace so slow

I try not to make a disturbance
Don't want to ruin this soothing pleasance

Of course we get interrupted
but these moments never corrupted

Tried to be insusceptible
Asperity's unacceptable

Then my thoughts return to you
My full attention is there too

My body heat begins to rise
Breathing fast, I hope not to compromise

Hope I don't make an unpleasant surprise
Then I look into your eyes...

...Making the heat my body's not
It's just that you're really hot.

Dr. Prescription

I don't know
What you see
When you begin
To look at me.

I am supposedly pure
Although I need a cure
For a secret disease
Getting through it there's no ease.

So I ask please...

Won't you stay with me
For just a little longer
While I heal
and grow a little stronger.

There is something I need
But something I don't have
If I don't get it soon
I'll continue to be rav-enous.

You come in, rosey cheeks
So damaged you cannot speak
You see me strapped down
On your face neither smile nor frown.

I need you when I feel down...

Won't you stay with me
Just a little longer
While I heal
And grow a little stronger.

Down your cheeks roll a single tear
Lean in close and whisper in my ear
Your finger touches my lip, I become ecstatic.
That worries everyone, professionals start to panic.

And they grasp you away from me
The operations begin
Oblivious that they're creating
This sickness as ugly as sin

Don't realize you're my medicine...

Stay with me
Just a little longer
Bring me to ecstasy
As you make me stronger

Feeling; Incognito

There I stood
Something I had to expect
But I knew your choice
I'd have to respect.

It would be something
I'd have to accept
If you decided
To reject.

But you decided to go on
And embrace
Both our hearts
Began to race.

We stood there
Oh yes, my mind did space.
We got interrupted,
Reminded that we should pace.

People stared
It's always online chat or the phone
Never in person
Can we be alone.

Is there something about us
That they don't trust?
Believing in some kind
Of secret lust?

Why we're watched so closely
I don't know why
But be together
We will try.

If alone we'd probably
Just stare each other down
Silence too awkward to break
Both of us like some kind of clown

I wait for you to talk
But there's nothing to receive
But I guess I'm no better
It's something you can't conceive.

It's because I look into your eyes
I'm not sure what to say or do.
But I know
That I love
You.

At The Last Moment

Outside in the cold dark
Letting all the warmth go
Leaving a different world behind
Here, intensity will grow.

I could tell you were nervous
You took so much pressure
But you made a move
That I will always treasure.

I turn around because
There's something I want to say
But you are not there,
I've noticed I walked away.

There you were
On the ground
Just sitting there
Not making a sound.

I couldn't move
All I did was smile
I thought what should I do?
The answer took a while...

To process
Make progess
in my mind
You helped me to see
That I wasn't blind.

You fell
On the cement so cold
I knew you wanted, needed
Someone for you to hold.

In that moment
It was just you and me
In our own universe
Where we were free.

You got up
All I could do was shrug
And that was when
We shared a hug.

I had to leave
And it ended fast
But that doesn't mean
It will be our last.

She

Is wonderful to have around
Is so funny
Is so Fun-loving
is shy and
so cute.
Is crazy to choose me
Is insane, because I don't know what she sees in me.
Has to be pushed hard sometimes.
Is admirable for being pushed.
Is warm
Is sweet
Is so talented
In a lot of different ways
Is sometimes feisty.
Is so smart.
Is an angel.
Can somehow find a way to love me.
Is my inspiration,
My reason,
My determination.
She is so beautiful,
and I'm lucky to have her.
Is the girl I love.

It Should've Been Longer

But it felt too short

This Society

I know what I want
I know what YOU want me to be
I know what YOU want me to do
I know that I don't want to
I know that YOU'll be happy if I do
I know that, I just won't
I know that now a days, people don't base you off of your character
I know that all everyone sees is a piece of paper with letters meaning nothing to me
I know that when I don't do what YOU want, YOU get mad
I know that for some stupid reason I have to say sorry, and make up for it. Because YOU say so.
I know what my future will be.
I know it will be sad. But it is MY decision.
I know what I will have to do to make my life better. And I will try.
I know I will break my promises.
I know that you will get mad at me, and yell at me.
I know that in the end you will strike me down, and put me in harm's way.
I know that you, Society, is what I thrive off of. And whose standard's will ultimately and udderly shut me out, and shut me down.
I know there will be others, whose hearts are soft, who will pitty me.
I know that if I pull through, I will take vengence on those who shoved me down.
I know that if I succeed without your guidelines, your rules, that you will know those rules need not exist.
I know that if I become a success I will laugh in your face.
I know that if you're children one day look up to me, I will tell them how you brought me down.
I know that you shouldn't judge me based off of letters on a piece of paper.
I know I should try better. But your constant lecturing isn't helping.
I know John 8:7