(Un)Shatter-Proofed

It has been a while
Guess that's my writing style
Feeling crazed, like the hatter
Don't understand, am I feeling sadder?

There are things which I regret
Too bad those things I can't forget
Now I see things at a distance
In my mind, such hesitance

Mistakes which I dare not repeat
Things I've stood for, now keep me in my seat.
I miss you, but it doesn't matter.
Alice rarely sees the hatter.

Events pass my head in a flurry
Time jumps ahead, it's in a hurry
I am scared, gone, I'm lost
Want to be found, but can't pay the cost

Lukewarm to me, are all the joys
Can't clear up all the white noise
No longer want to be a chatter
My heart, my mind, appear to be
Shattered