A Request

Well, it seemed like things were going fine
But I held back due to a verbal sign
Curiosity killed the cat
Wondering why did I have to look at that

Relationships are based on will and trust
And I was willing to trust, everyone
Had to take care of their lust, have some fun
This mystery, up to me to bust, and I feel dumb

Second time she almost broke my heart
She wonders if we can restart
I wasn't sure yet
How to get my words set

Say it in a text, be like a curse
I decide to set it to the verse
I wanted to tell you in person
Explain to you my first condition

With you again
I wanna see the stars
Decide who is who
And which one is ours

And it's time to be revealed
The second thing I kept concealed

Let's make it unlike last year
When I didn't even hear
from you, let's make the summer great
Keep it from becoming a debate

Don't let three months become a bummer
Please, love me for at least the summer

Dimming Rage

My soul burned!
My heart churned.

My head blew steam
Reality, it's a bad dream.

All the walls that I wanted to smash
Your world, his, I wanted it to crash.

I was gonna get up in his face
Yell at him, make him look like a disgrace.

I awkwardly talk with the wise old bird
I carefully listened to every single word.

Ready to fight, I finally arrived
But I stayed my tongue, acted sleep deprived.

Released my sadness through a small voice
I'm surrounded by a clatter of noise.

I release my anger through several beads
Kick my anger until it completely impedes.

I'm fine with him now, it's all onto you
But I'm still not sure what I want to do.

Cut you with my words, each one a hack
Or apologize for going behind your back.

End of the day, it's no longer hazy
Stay mad at you, I'd be crazy.

Me holding a grudge, impossible
My love for you, insurmountable

But, what to do now?
I'm not sure
What do you think?

A Fading Memory

Twinkle, twinkle those little stars did
Away from the rest of the world, we hid
Foreign whispers surrounded, but it was really just you and I
As we sat and laid there, looking up at the night time sky

Cold night, offered a jacket, I just turn away
With you it's always a hot summer day
Turn my head, want to kiss God's beautiful creation
But I must resist that aberration.

I'm a fool about this deal, why did I insist?
Now I realize that I must consist
As I turn my head to hesitate
I begin to contemplate

The stars, your eyes, there's no comparison
The stars, your beauty has always outdone
As this thought runs through my head
It starts to slip away, the thought has fled

You tell me not to forget
And I won't
But will you remember me?

Untitled

I'm not the typical guy
You will find
I'm of a different kind

The kind who likes to ponder
About the things that no one wonders about

Yes I may be weird
Because I never cheered
For the home team
I was busy, stuck in a dream

The same kind of people
Come in all shapes and sizes
But you will see
I'm quite full of surprises

I'm not exactly Nerd
I'm a little bit of Geek
Not the kind of person you would seek

My type is undefined
The one who unwinds and shouts

People know my name
But never heard of my game
Behind my eyes lays deception
Plants in their minds a misconception

The same kind of people
Come in all shapes and sizes
But you will see
That I'm quite full of surprises

Neither you or I
Know exactly what I am
But that's part of the plan

I'm not a bad boy or a jock
But I don't read comics, or like Spock

Not nice, but not a jerk
Kind of lazy, but I want to work
Everybody who looks at me
They don't know what they see, neither do I

The same kind of people
Come in all shapes and sizes
But you will find
That I'm quite full of surprises

To find out who I am
That part might just take a while
But I am fine staying untitled

To find out who I am
That part might just take a while
But I am fine staying untitled

...

Homesick

Can't think of lyrics for a happy song
All I can think of, are the things that are wrong
I'm in a
Depression
Making no
Progression

Out on the streets everything is so new
My failures rapidly come out of the blue
And I can't
Think
I refuse to
Sing.

I just wanna go
Home.
Won't you take me home?
Cause I am so home sick
Just so home sick.
I wanna go home.

Things didn't work out between mom and dad
Bloody battles were fought, it became Stalingrad
I'm just
Tired
Time has
Expired.

My bike chain, broke it appears
Why must I always break into tears?
When I'm
Alone?
I'm always
Alone

I just wanna go
Home.
Can I just go home?
I am so home sick.
Why am I so home sick?
I wanna go home

How come the happiness didn't last?
That home is now just my past
I'll never
Return
Always
Feel burned.

And I just wanna smash all the walls
Because it wasn't fair, no.
I wanna stand tall
But I fall down, fall down.
It's not fair. They won't let me go

Home.
I just wanna go back home
I feel so home sick
Do I have to be home sick?
Carry me home.

I learn another one's home
Know it better than my own
All repressed
Is my pain
Heart broken
And insane

All because I'm
Homesick.



The Message:
A little while ago my parents divorced. This has been hard to accept, and my life style and mental state has changed for the worse. I am insecure, lazy, depressed, and with younger siblings, I have to be the tough one. Never let them see you cry. All my pain, all my anger is repressed. This poem is my acceptance of hard times, but also a wish to go back to the way things used to be. A home is a place to get away from the troubles of the world, an oasis. I no longer have that, the life I live is alien to me. I wish I could go back home.

Time waiting, Time Spent

Surrounded, try to keep occupied

Music ringing in my ear

Wish that you were by my side

Want you to be here.



I scream & applaud

Strangers recognize me

I politely nod

Indecisive, where I want to be



Combined events

Everybody I tried to please

Separation, I tried to prevent

Make decision a bit eas-ier



But that doesn't happen

Things never go as planned

I'm a bit saddened

Your prolonged absence I can't stand



The next day did rise

Too slowly did it pass

Sent to me all your sighs

You're such a worried lass.


I finally arrive

Everyone, waiting on me

But few moments I can derive

As we sit and watch a movie


Two hours pass by

and my neck is stiff

Now you have to fly

There's no question of what if


Time passes by too soon